Our final workshop. I didn’t want it to start. I didn’t want this to end. But I had to face reality. So I kicked my ass after two days of rejecting everything. And suddenly my ideas were sparkling.

I had too much ideas and nothing really convinced me. So I grabbed my TV from a workshop in week 5. And just started with this. I always wanted to destroy a TV and film that. That’s why, maybe. But first I wanted to mess around with it. Here are the results…

I also took it on a trip through south Iceland.  In the end I exhibited two projections. One with pics and one with four videos in one. I filmed me treating it in different ways. During this weeks I somehow fall in love with this TV that I didn’t felt like destroying it anymore. Once I only had hate for this medium, because of its (mostly bad) Influence to society.  Its a manipulating thing of shit, to be honest.

I always wanted to change the world and make it a better place. But I had to find out that this is not possible. But its not the TV. The people who work and produce this are responsible. And as long as everybody just thinks of the money and not HOW they earn it (there are people who just don’t give a shit if they sell guns, drugs, humans or other shit… if they just get enough money out of it. Disgusting!!! but anyway… ) nothing will change.

I manipulated the TV now. I showed him the REAL world. I treated him like shit. I loved it. Yesteday finally… I destroyed it in a stnd up life performance. Lasse wanted to through it away. So … before that I needed to destroy it. Was not that easy. I only used my hands and played „Song to say goodbye“ from Placebo.

After this I felt high. Everything made sense for me. I made my peace with this world and still try to fight against most parts of it. I can be IN and OUT of society and TV at the same time. I always thaught I had to make a decision. But that’s not true.